Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Life Right Now

Just a small update on things. Not much to tell really. Physically still doing great, only about 3 pounds to go to prepregnacy weight, then on to the next weight goal. I really need to start up a workout routine just not quite motivated yet.

Emotionally things are still a struggle. Daytime is ok, I keep busy enough to not think about things to much. Starting back at work has helped. Crocheting or reading in my free time. I've also dived into the couponing business and am doing pretty well at that so far. The hard part is watching friends get to keep their babies, especially when several were due around the time we had Noah or are due soon. Please don't get me wrong, I'm happy for all of them; happy that they don't know the heartbreak I feel, that we feel. But it brings out such a sense of longing for something that was taken away from me, and that is hard. Nighttime is also hard; hasn't really gotten better yet. I wish when I went to bed my brain would just shut off, that I could slip into sleep without starting to think. It's a continual struggle to leave all my worries and sadness with God but I keep working at it.

We are still slowly healing and I know that a huge part of that is the continual prayers for us. I guess I am voicing my stuggles so that everyone knows what to pray for. We could never thank everyone enough for everything done for us.


  1. Thanks for letting us know what to pray for!

  2. Praying that each day brings you peace in your heart~

  3. Have followed your story through April 2011 bumpies. Just wanted to let you know that I think of you often and continue to pray for you and your husband