I wasn't sure how I would handle today, going back to church for the first time since getting the news about Noah. Not well, it turns out. I'm glad I went because I definitely needed it. Part of my problem is I don't like to cry in front of people and it seems that today, that was all I was able to do. All I did through the songs. All I did through the sermon tonight (which was great by the way, I definitely needed to hear it, but it definitely dealt with some fresh feelings I have.)
I want to apologize for leaving so quickly to anyone that might have been wanting to talk to me after church. It seems that for now, I can't even handle getting a hug without breaking down. I want to apologize for this blog being the only way I can talk to any of you about this right now. I hope to eventually get to the point to where I can talk to anyone that has questions in person. I'm just not quite there yet. Aaron and I want to thank everyone for all of their prayers and encouragement, I know that we wouldn't be able to get through this without any of you. I also know that we will need plenty more of your prayers in the months to come. We love you all and are so thankful for everyone.
Today I was looking for comfort scriptures. I find this is one of the most calming things besides prayer that gets me through a rough day. I thought I would end this post with the ones I found today.
"I know, O Lord, that your rules are righteous, and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me. Let your steadfast love comfort me according to your promise to your servant." -Psalm 119:75-76
"Sing praises to the Lord, O you his saints, and give thanks to his holy name. For his anger is but for a moment, and his favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning." -Psalm 30:4-5
"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling." -Psalm 46:1-3